How I got consistent.
It was November 6th; I woke up after very few hours of sleep and realized I didn’t want this way of life any longer.
You see for a long time; I wasn’t making myself proud. I was doing “all of the things” on the outside but I was truly dying on the inside.
I wasn’t consistent with my word to myself, my word to others, my body or my work up to that point.
That day when I woke up struggling to get my daughter to school, I was ashamed, and I was broken.
I knew there was a better way, and I was going to live it.
I made a commitment to myself to honor this life I was gifted, this body I was given and this dream I was destined for.
I started small. I had already been journaling for years intentionally. So, this step was implemented. But I began to figure out what my core value were. Things like honesty, trust, pride, love, healing and deep relationships came up.
I made a list of all of the things I could do in order to make these core values more of my reality.
I stopped doing things that didn’t serve my body. That was an immediate shift.
Then I decided I would fully commit to myself and my business and finally get consistent. I would stop starting over on Monday’s and I would give it my all, while putting the small moments with my family first.
I time blocked specific times for my business before I even had consistent clients. I scheduled in time for learning and growing when those future clients would be. I worked on the back end of my business in designated times. I acted as if I had the business I dreamt of and I was consistent with myself and did things that made me proud.
I went so long disappointing myself by never being consistent and honestly treating my mind and body like an enemy, that when I did these things, I felt better than ever.
I had finally achieved consistency in my life and business, and I was so proud. I was and am healthier mind-body-soul than ever before! But I know there is still work to do and I’m actually excited about it.
Because I proved to myself that I can do hard things. I can have my definition of success. Because I’m living it.
On March 8th my world was shook. I had lost my dad tragically and extremely unexpectedly in a motorcycle accident.
My family and I knew this could have gone one of two ways for me.
I could fall back into who I was before. The woman who was quite literally actively hurting herself daily and not wanting to be alive. Or I could fight even harder to continue to become the woman I was made to be.
As I sat there on the porch with some of my closest family and friends, I had a choice to make. Pick up a drink and numb my pain and grief.
OR
Feel all of the feelings and let it fuel me to be better.
TO
Take for granted the time I was gifted with, with my father.
OR
To be immensely grateful for the time we had together and continue to make both of us proud
I chose the latter of those two options.
I stayed consistent and I stayed proud.
I implemented ALL of those small subtle shifts even more and created massive shifts in my life.
I wrote out my most dreamiest dream life.
I did more small subtle shifts over time that would help me achieve this life.
Just like I had done before.
When everything could have gone wrong. I chose LIFE.
I am telling you this today, because I want you to know there is a a better way. There is a light at the end of the tunnel and that dream you have is meant for you. Please don’t give up on it or you. No matter what you are going through.
I have honed in on the skill of being consistent and have perfected a routine and pattern that works for my life first business.
This is what I want for you. Consistency in your life and business that puts your priorities at the fore front. That creates small subtle shifts and commitments to you over time and in turn helps you achieve your dreamiest dreams.